Friday, October 31, 2008

very sad news

Tonight I got very sad news. I am still processing, but here's what happened.....I am watching Pushing Daisies on TiVo and my phone rings. I see that it is my friend Aaron's mom. I got excited and said "hello" and it is Aaron's little sister. This surprises me, but I said "hey what's up" and then she proceed to tell me that Aaron died. I didn't know what to say, I didn't really know how to feel. I haven't talked to him in at least a year, but I would consider him one of my closest friends. We dated in high school and while that didn't really work out, we remained close friends. I loved him very much. He was a great man. A great friend and a great brother and son. I somehow am relieved for him. I am happy that he has peace and has gone to be with the Lord, who will love him and take care of him. He had a rough life. His dad left when he was just a little kid and his mom worked really hard to raise him and his sister as good people. He just never seemed to get around to getting things in his life together. I know it all weighed on him and he felt like he was a failure at parts of life. So while I am sad and worried about his mom, I am glad he is finally at peace. I guess I take comfort that he is with our Lord.
I am very close to his mom. She always thought we should haven't stayed together and ended up married. At tough times in our relationship and friendship she has always been there for me, a friend and an insight into Aaron at times. His sister said his mom isn't ready to talk to anyone quite yet, but hopefully I will be able to talk to her tomorrow. I would like to go home to the funeral and say goodbye and be there for his mom. I don't know if this is possible, we will have to see.
To make matters worse, my own mom and dad are out of town, on a cruise! So I can't even talk to my mom! It sucks. And I wanted to tell people from school about what happened, but most of them I can only contact through facebook. Is that wrong?? I feel like they should know. I feel like a lot of them would like to go to the funeral. Oh this is so tough. I want to be there to help his mom. I know this is killing her. At least she was there when it happened and there with him. I am sure that is comforting to her.

Sorry this has been totally rambled, but I just needed to get somethings out. Pray for his mom and his sister, that they too can find peace. Just another reminder that life is too short and that you should cherish the time you have with loved ones. May GOD rest your soul Aaron! I love you!


Vanessa Rogers said...

I am very sorry to hear that, we will keep that family in our prayers.

Lone Starr State of Mind said...

Oh Tiffany, I am so sorry. You're in my prayers. Let me know if you need anything at all. You are so loved.